Monday Oct 26 | makingbabycoutts's Blog

Woke up hearing his alarm. He turned it off though so I tried to go back to sleep. I don't think I slept, or of I did it was briefly. I thought she'd be getting up so I went ahead and made a cup of coffee, lit a cigarette (in front of the fan blowing the smoke out the window) and hopped online to clear a few applications I play religiously.

She's still asleep. I'm surprised. Once she is awake I'll change and dress her so I can take her with me to the store for some baby food and formula. I'd like to take her out, let her see more of the world than just the condo. I should be out doing more with her.

I feel like a lazy mother when I hear about all the things her and her grandmother do while she is visiting. She has her on a schedule, which works for her. I don't have her on any schedule. I'm a lazy mom. I need to stop being lazy and start doing my job better.

Oooh speaking of my mom... I didn't tell you guys this yesterday but I gave her his debit credit card and told her that if she wanted to get out and do something fun with Doodles while I was there cleaning that she could take the card and pick up some things she needs for when the baby is visiting (more bottles, another set of feeding nets, a bottle brush, things like that). I said that while they were next door to Toys R Us and Babies R Us that if they wanted to go pick out a toy together that would be fine, as long as it's $10 or $15 bucks he wont mind.

Well she must have misunderstood thinking I meant $10 or $15 for the toy alone cause she went out and spent like $45 bucks on his card. I didn't say anything but my heart sank and I had that moment where ya feel like you want to gasp. She needed shoes so ma picked up a pair of cute sneakers for her... oh she's up now. I just heard her. I gotta go. More later.