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Ray cheats on his girlfriend. I've lost all respect for him.

I couldn't believe my ears when Daddy Coutts told me that ray told him he'd fucked this tiny chick a couple of times (as she walked away from the store). Suddenly he remembers his cell phone is on the counter. He had been talking to his girlfriend but put her on hold to help some customers then forgot about her. Some boyfriend huh.

It's creepy how someone can be so good natured and amicable while hiding such a rotten conscience. I guess if you spend enough time ignoring your conscience it gets easier. Think about that for a minute. How scary is that shit?

If a person gets good enough at it they turn into the kind of person who can deceive someone, then brush aside the guilt later and carry on as though nothing happened. Doesn't take a genius to figure out ya can't trust that kind of person.

It'll be hard to look at him knowing he does this and is ok with doing it. I'll look at him and all that pretty boy charm will melt away revealing the ugliness beneath. I'll have to look at that and give no sign whatsoever, no steely gaze, no tension in my voice. More than that I'll be expected to continue as though I didn't know, which I can and will do.

I'm just so disappointed in him. I really thought he was a better person than that. I get a knot in my stomach thinking about this subject so I'm gonna go now.

Ugh... cringes.